“Hear, O Israel: The LORD our God, the LORD is one. You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might. And these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise. You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates. - Deuteronomy 6:4-9
I've gotten older!!! Not quite sure how that happened, really. ;) Each day it seems I have forgotten more things than I can keep up with! And then to look at how much time passes between...things...it is mind-blowing. (I cannot believe it has been nearly four years since my last post.)
One of the reasons my time flies is because life is so full - husband, toddler, mother-in-law living with us, job, other family, church...you get the idea - the hours of each day slip by like clouds in the sky. We get up for each day and it seems it's just a few hours and we're laying back down to get some sleep before we start all over again the next day. I'm so busy, I let myself think there's not enough time to sit down and read God's Word. So I have nothing to meditate on, talk about, chew on all day and I have forgotten too much. Busyness leads to forgetfulness.
When I started this blog eleven years ago (Oh. My. Gosh.), I was just trying something "new" that everyone was doing. I had thoughts and ideas and wanted to contribute something to someone. Yes, there were a few people along the way who commented on my posts, telling me how it helped them or challenged them. But the truth is, this blog became a huge part of growing my faith. I was always thinking of how God was working in my life and was looking for ways to share that through the written word. My thoughts were on God and finding Him in the daily routine...the small things in life. These days, there's just the routine. It has overwhelmed me and kept me from thinking and wanting to share.
There is power in the written word. Just look at The Bible - the single most printed and influential book in the world. Moses even reminded the children of Israel to "write them (the commandments) on the doorposts of your house and your gates." The process of putting thought to paper (or keyboard) requires moments of quiet and introspection. It takes time to put together a coherent thought.
It's time to get back to that. Time to focus. Time to remember. I must make the time to read, talk, remember and be quiet. I'm not pledging to write "x" number of posts each day, week or month, but I am pledging to do the things that will lead to me writing again. I need more of God in my life because I've never felt further from Him than I do right now. Writing is what I need to help bring me back to the right mindset.
Fortunately for me, God is faithful even when I'm not. He never forsakes, leaves or abandons us, and if we just read, think, remember and listen...He speaks so clearly. I want to hear from Him again. I need to hear from Him. I have a 2 1/2 year old daughter that needs to know her Creator and I'm the one to teach her. Maybe my words here, forever captured on the internet (you know where nothing ever disappears!) will be there for here when I'm gone and will remind her to read, think, remember and listen.